Finally going to the doctor today. It’s just my regular one but it’s better than not going to see anyone. After not being able to keep anything down for the past few days, and after not even being able to drive myself home from work last night because I couldn’t stop dry heaving and I was weak and lightheaded, I decided it was way past time to make an appointment.
Lucky me hasn’t been able to keep anything down for the past few days. I feel weak and have this unsettled feeling in my stomach that nothing seems to be able to help. It would be wonderful if I could just lay in bed for a few days and relax but I have been working everyday this past week and my next day off isn’t until Wednesday. This has been a miserable week. I need help.
Today I had very little nausea (YAY!!) But I know that’s not something I should get used to quite yet. I am almost six weeks and am at the point where everything either upsets me or makes me mad and it’s frustrating to try and not let that happen. I enjoyed everything I ate today, and am very proud of myself for choosing healthy meals and snacks. I did just start craving junk food but went with a chocolate protein shake instead. And I must say, it’s the most comforting feeling when AJ tells me something that I need to do to make myself more relaxed or what’s good for me and what’s not because he was doing research. I love him so much more everyday for all that he does for me.
Grandma Cece just gave me this slanket. It may be silly but it’s warm so I will be taking full advantage of the sleeves and the fact that it’s three times bigger than me at the moment. Today has been a very good day for me. I woke up feeling kind of yucky but AJ made me a protein shake, this time we actually had ice cream to put in it which made it more tolerable for me. I drank the entire thing and felt so much better. I even felt good enough to curl my hair, although they’ve fallen already. I wish I could have more days like this.
I drank a protein shake before bed last night and woke up feeling fairly decent compared to the past week. But I didn’t eat soon enough after I got up so now I’m nauseous, just like where I was before. It makes it so difficult to make it through a short shift at work but thankfully they put me in the back today. Right next to the bathroom or the trash can if I can’t make it there, or that fast. I can’t wait until this part is over. Just, what, a couple more months to go before I don’t have to deal with morning sickness anymore?
By the way, happy valentine’s day.
(Source: shackelford / Jon ward)
does this whole “glowing” thing actually exist? because i feel like it’s just how my face looks after a day of throwing up..
this is real life, and i have to start getting used to it. waking up early in the morning, and being wide awake. feeling sick to my stomach almost constantly at this point. it’s difficult to eat when i’m feeling so nauseous but i know that i have to, which doesn’t make it any easier. anytime that i wake up in the middle of the night to pee, or to roll over, aj immediately wakes up and asks if i’m okay, or what’s wrong, or what’s happening. we just found out about this precious little miracle so it’s going to take some getting used to all the changes happening with/to me. but i can tell you one thing: i cannot stop crying. i cried changing light bulbs at work yesterday because i couldn’t get one of them out. i cried because i thought aj wouldn’t love me anymore after i got fat. i cried talking to my mom. i cried watching up, (although this happened before i became pregnant, too.) i wouldn’t mind staying in bed for the next month or two, or until i have my morning sickness under control. but unfortunately, that is not real life.